The Prayer
Creator,
I feel anxious and fearful about the future, even though I know that we’ve collaborated on a beautiful story thus far. We’ve found a way to weave the painful parts into the fabric of my being while keeping me soft. We’ve also instilled a healthy dose of risk aversion, allowing me to pace myself through each new thing.
Right now, as You know, I’m navigating a few transitions, with more on the horizon. My heart races and my shoulders tighten when I think about the next couple of months. Applications are looming and paperwork is beckoning. The dissertation is a persistent presence, constantly nagging to be written. And then there are the people, myself included, yearning for connection and care. I am grateful for & burdened by all the things. Sometimes, they feel so far out of reach that I find myself scrambling. I’m not sure what pacing myself looks like this time or whether it’s even possible.
Remind me that You are always with me.
Help me be present in the moments of ease & pleasure amidst these transitions.
Fill me with the hope and belief that there is always more: more peace, more rest, more love, more creativity, more alignment.
Remind me that simply being is enough; that I am more than any task, milestone, title, accomplishment or feeling.
Ground me in my why and eliminate any other driving force that introduces a false sense of urgency. Teach me how to stay aligned.
Grant me the patience and courage to hold space for loneliness, heaviness and fear as they arise.
Remain close to me as I go through it.
Teach me how to grow through it.
Keep me well. Keep me sane. Keep me whole.
Amen.